On Death and Tikbalangs

It’s funny how my brain works. One minute I’m watching a science documentary, engrossed with it and all. Next thing I know, I was thinking that I’m going to die eventually and I’m going to leave everything behind.

What really happens when we die? Where do we go after we die? What will we feel when we’re dead? (maybe most of you will answer “wala, patay ka na nga eh! Oo nga, pero, basta patay ka na lang? Ganun na lang yun!?”) What’ll happen to your memories, feelings and personality? What will to the energy that we used to have when we’re still alive and bubbly? Naipasa na lang ba siya sa mga uod, damo damo at bacteria sa sementeryo? I’ve been asking these questions ever since I was in grade school to my classmates, friends and older people but, none of them seem to bother. They’d simply say, “wala, patay ka na nga eh!” How can they tell? Have they ever been dead and lived to tell about it? Mga tanga. Yes, there is a scientific explanation about the light after the tunnel. It’s just your brain, shutting down when you’re about to die. Didn't think anyone has surpassed that moment and lived to tell everyone about what happened after. Do things such as spirits exist? Eh yung momo, kapre at tikbalang kaya? This domain is way beyond science can explain and it seems like there’s nobody in this world that can answer such questions. What about time and space? What did exist when these two did not exist yet?

This is getting way too long. I see life as a one way trip and there’s no really coming back. Live life to the fullest while you’re still breathing. Get laid and bump uglies while you can. Fuck a lot of women (said by gramps from Little Miss Sunshine!) My mother, being the religious person she is, used to tell me that I should always pray and be ready to die. (meaning, I should repent my sins before I die. Para siguro may mukha akong ihaharap sa “KANYA” pag nagkita kami.) Maybe I think too much about death. Hell yeah, I’m scared of dying, who isn’t? But look at the brighter side of dying. It isn’t losing anything actually. Not even your life! You just gain knowledge and experience because dying is just a part of being alive.

Hirap ng walang magawa.

condolence moshe. We're praying for the eternal repose of your mother's soul.